Bella left us ... 2 months ago

From she is diagnose w lumpoma... Til the day she is gone...28Jul2024... We are all counting down to the day... Prepare and keep n create more wonderful memories w her... No matter what... When the the comes ... We got to let go... Thanks for leaving behind so much wonderful memories for us to recall ... 

Disappointed

Another level of disappointment w them. Notice something abnormal when I got in the car this morning. Chloe oso noticed. But I didn't take it to heart until dear told me he suspect someone touch the bike. Then we starts to wonder ....

I checked home cctv, notice 1am plus Shawn come near the book shelves n at the same time shifted the CCTV. 

Then I check the car camera. Saw the footage of my boys n Cyrus stand in front of the car camera. Camera was shut from last nite . The timing do not run. So we know someone purposely off it.

I m upset feeling got betray by own children. They just don't understand the serious impact. If they really drive the car out n got into any accident, how?

We keep it to ourself as of now. Really duno how to react to this. Somehow angry w them as well. 

难过

Whatever I tried seem useless. No matter how hard I tot I m strong enough n won't give up. But as it goes, I feel tat i oso Wana protect myself. Y must I b treated like shit. No respect to me. Tell me respect us for what. He really duno what he is talking now. I really hurt by his words. I go thro the parenting program, he said I act to care n love him. Y sld I need to act? I try to hold back myself many time. Telling myself b patient n stay calm. I fail. When he is so rude to me when I ask him to clean up the mess after cook. Give me attitude. Use vagular language on me. 

We call up police to get their fren out of the house. Both follow their fren out rite after the office left. N Shawn pack his bag n planning not to come home for daily again.

I cried. I duno y they become like that. I put in so much effort when they were young. In return like this. I can't take the outcome. It hurts me so much. 

Chloe turn 12 year old

Our little princess turn 12 year old. She is our lil precious lady at home. After I go thro all the mess w the boys, I seem to understand n treasure her more then anything. 

I took half day n walk Bella to sch to pick her. She was glad Bella make it til her birthday.

She includes her in all her bday plan. Even said to swop her bday w Bella to help her celebrate in advance.

We have her two friend joining us for steamboat lunch.

At city square, Shi Li Fang. N she was luckily to get the big bear since we spend more than $120. 

I get her a brandy cheer cake and some pizza for the night. 

We brought Bella to North shore for her Paw cup. She loves Bella so much.

back home to sing her bday song eat the bday cake 🎂 n pizza 🍕.

I m sad in me as we didn't get to have the brothers celebrate together. And I m the only one singing for her. I know she do mind also. I can only do this much for now.

I hope she enjoy her day n remember this 12th birthday celebration we go thro together. 

Shawn 16 bday

Spend a day in Jb. 

Drive in went movie makan shopping. But bday boy still unhappy whole day. 

In order no to disappoint him, I insist papa to drive in JB. Plan Wana try Go-kart but he rejected. End up in shopping mall

Didn manage to get him a bday cake. But we got him a mini one few days later... But he got stay out late overnight ... Waste our effort.

I only hope u grow up b a sensible boy. Learn to appreciate ppl effort. Dun take things for granted. N back to good health n active in sport again.

Bella diagnosis with lymphoma on 21Mar2024

First visit to vet on 9Mar after I notice swollen lymph nodes on her neck, sample extract surface test high chance cancer. Asked to go back on 11Mar am to take blood test. Refer to VES. Result out 18Mar. Cancer marker "Very High risk" 

20Mar, first visit to VES w Doc Koo. Took blood test n sample extract for detail test.

21Mar am. Received call from VES. Confirm cancer lymphoma. Rush down meet Doc Koo to discuss n understand the option we have for her treatment.

(1) 19 session chemo @ est $800 each. Exclude any possible complication incur along the way. Est another 12mths life( from tdy) -- we can't afford. So this is out of our range.

(2) 5 sessions chemo @ est $800 each. Exclude any possible complication incur along the way. Est another 6mths life ( from tdy) -- doc advice set aside $6k due to other test or complication along the way. N each time need IV drip n do blood test. If white blood cell fail, then need return another day to redo test n consider do tat session chemo. 

(3) Give her oral medicine steroids daily. Est 2-3 mths life ( from tdy) 

After discussing w Seng n Chloe. We decide to go for opt 3. Avoid all the further testing. Just to extend another 3 mths life via all the chemo. Not worth to go thro the pain. Mayb some might think we are cruel to give up treatment. But it's really not an easy decision. 

Album created to record her progress... N keep all the memories we hv w her for the last stage of her life. Hope she will go through easily w least suffer in final stage.

Sweet Bella on 1Apr 

Send Chloe to tuition on 1Apr

Dog run 31Mar

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Macau trip with Esther & Kelly (23-27Dec 2023)

 

A long plan we start looking forward since mid of 2023.

 

23Dec(15:30pm Air Macau NX907 T2)

Left home ard 12.20pm.. Dear, mei n Roy send me to airport then see me off. Esther, Kelly and Bernard already q for check in.

Took a pic before head in. Accompany Esther to eat some light snack. Bread n coffee. Then we have our free wine corktail.

Flight delay til 4.30 then move off. We reach Macau ard 8.40pm. Decided to take LRT to 妈阁站，

then a bus (28B) to hotel. Took the wrong direction hence go one big round. Drop off nearby n drag our luggage n walk thro the cold weather. Reach hotel ard 10plus. Then we head out to look for food. Had 酸辣粉，egglett and curry fish balls. Wasn't fantastic meal. Wash up n turn in ard 12.

 

24Dec

Woke up early n head out at 8am. Walk towards Grand Lisboa then to MGM. To meet Christine group.  Meet nice old man who chat n guide us the way. Had some bread n drink at MGM. Make our first casino membership.

After we found 711 to buy our Macau Pass n took bus. Wrong direction hence go long big 1hr ride to Sofltiel.

At Sofltiel, we make our sec casino membership. Claim our Cha siew fan n pork bun, milk tea.

Then walk over to buy almond biscuit from 最香饼家。Before walk over to 大三巴 together with Christine and group then took a group pic.

Crowded street. Event at the Ruins of Sao Paulo. Christine min concert.

Shop ard there and bought some nice items to bring back.

Went back to hotel to put our stuffs, those biscuit we bought from 最香。

 

Walk down hill to nearby bus stop. Took bus to New Yaohan.We had our dinner at the food court above the New Yaohan. Bought the lucky biscuit.

 

Shop at nearby SASA to buy some masks and little gifts from our girls back home.

 

Went Lisboa casino. Deposit our bags before we go inside the casino. We played awhile before head over bus-stop took a bus back to Hotel.

 

Drop off half way to find place to eat dinner. End up in Jolibee eat something before continue back hotel.

 

Turn in at almost 12mn+.

 

 

 

25Dec

Had our breakfast at 永安咖啡屋. Each of us have different version of Maggi noodle. Lol.

 

Slowly we walk to Ruins of Sao Paulo. Along the way went to medical store to pick up some medical oil.Took lots of nice pics. Visit 澳门博物馆，Continue took some pictures at 大三巴。Posing at one lamppost, love lane 恋爱港.and tried the Matcha ice cream at MaiKo 舞技.

Try the egg chee cheong fun at Lun Kee Cheung Fun Rice roll。

Eat

 

Then we find our ways to 永吉柠檬 to get some dry tibits and ginger.

Walk to Sofltel, visited the casino then take the 发财车 to interchange to change another to Venetian.

 

We played few games at the casino, Chip in fund and play together (大小). Manage to win and gain back what Esther lost in jackpot.

 

Went Venetian Macao shop and take picture. Esther got checked at the entrance to Venetian casino. Suspect age not met. Lol

 

Took 发财车 over to Parisian Macao. Had dinner at the food court.

Went outside to take pic and walk ard. Took Public bus back to Grand Libao can change bus.

 

 

26Dec

 

Woke up early. 8am Went up to the roof top to take some pictures and enjoy the nice weather.

 

Took a bus to 下環街市熟食中心, some stalls only open in late morning or afternoon. We manage to try the beancurd, timsum, xlb and the beef.

 

Took a bus down to Grand Lishoa. Visited the grand toilet as per recommended from 小红书. Took lots of pictures in the toilet. Then head over to resturtant. Was told no booking at first, then we urged and then they let us in but pay at seasonal price.

Lunch buffet at Grand Lisboa Palace. 自助山

 

Took 发财车 to next stop.关也街 shop and walk ard. Crowded. Tried the the milk bean curd at Yee Shun Milk Company.Then slowly walk over to “Our Lady of Carmel Church”

Christine help us to q and get the famous egg tarts. I was too full hence only ask to get one. (Regret) But I keep till I reach hotel late nite to eat it. Still so nice. After grab some more goodies from the store, we separated with Christine group and move on to Galaxy Macau. Wait and watch the Diamond show.(5pm) and the diamond lobby.(5.45pm)

 

Took train to next stop

 

At Wynn palace, Long q for the cable car hence we give it a miss. Watched the water fountain music/light show at 6.30pm. Went inside to watch the musical show at 7pm. And the forture three show.I video call seng to let him watch the show together.

 

Took a crowded bus back to our hotel area.

 

Dinner at 22.10pm at the nearby xmas fair. Open concept seat and few stalls nearby. Had some chicken wings and curry fish ball and egglets.

 

 

 

27Dec (Home Sweet Home)(10:30am NX908 Air Macau MFM Macau Int’L Airport)

 

While almost to leave then I notice I lost my room card. Compensated for the card. Got the hotel to help us book a car. At first we were worried one car is not big enough for four of us plus all the bags and lugguages.

 

Reach airport at 7.35am. Christine group all there already.

 

8.40am, Having breakfast Timsum with Kelly and Bernard. Esther joined Christine to Lounge.

 

On the flight at 10.16am.

 

Reach SG T2 at ard 2.40pm. We were grab our liqors while Christine n others help us collect our stuff from belt.

 

Bernard was stopped by the officer to check on the liqor he carried/purchased. Since all other them had left before us. Luckly we did taken a pic before fly off at macau. He can prove he is not alone.

 

Sent Kelly n Bernard back.