Disappointed

Another level of disappointment w them. Notice something abnormal when I got in the car this morning. Chloe oso noticed. But I didn't take it to heart until dear told me he suspect someone touch the bike. Then we starts to wonder ....

I checked home cctv, notice 1am plus Shawn come near the book shelves n at the same time shifted the CCTV. 

Then I check the car camera. Saw the footage of my boys n Cyrus stand in front of the car camera. Camera was shut from last nite . The timing do not run. So we know someone purposely off it.

I m upset feeling got betray by own children. They just don't understand the serious impact. If they really drive the car out n got into any accident, how?

We keep it to ourself as of now. Really duno how to react to this. Somehow angry w them as well. 

难过

Whatever I tried seem useless. No matter how hard I tot I m strong enough n won't give up. But as it goes, I feel tat i oso Wana protect myself. Y must I b treated like shit. No respect to me. Tell me respect us for what. He really duno what he is talking now. I really hurt by his words. I go thro the parenting program, he said I act to care n love him. Y sld I need to act? I try to hold back myself many time. Telling myself b patient n stay calm. I fail. When he is so rude to me when I ask him to clean up the mess after cook. Give me attitude. Use vagular language on me. 

We call up police to get their fren out of the house. Both follow their fren out rite after the office left. N Shawn pack his bag n planning not to come home for daily again.

I cried. I duno y they become like that. I put in so much effort when they were young. In return like this. I can't take the outcome. It hurts me so much. 

Chloe turn 12 year old

Our little princess turn 12 year old. She is our lil precious lady at home. After I go thro all the mess w the boys, I seem to understand n treasure her more then anything. 

I took half day n walk Bella to sch to pick her. She was glad Bella make it til her birthday.

She includes her in all her bday plan. Even said to swop her bday w Bella to help her celebrate in advance.

We have her two friend joining us for steamboat lunch.

At city square, Shi Li Fang. N she was luckily to get the big bear since we spend more than $120. 

I get her a brandy cheer cake and some pizza for the night. 

We brought Bella to North shore for her Paw cup. She loves Bella so much.

back home to sing her bday song eat the bday cake 🎂 n pizza 🍕.

I m sad in me as we didn't get to have the brothers celebrate together. And I m the only one singing for her. I know she do mind also. I can only do this much for now.

I hope she enjoy her day n remember this 12th birthday celebration we go thro together.