Bday 2016

This yr bday.. seem so short.. mayb cos we spend time q to buy kids book..

Is sat.. so as usual we bring mei to ballet.. then hv bf at 266 mkt.. ate our sheng mien..met guiqi..

Then we went boys sch q to buy books n uniform...waited for a bit an hr..

Went student care put their clothing..

Request to go compassone to shop alone.. buy gift first ofc exchg.. then buy small gift for kids n hb...then head home to rest n nap...

Nite we went kovan eat lok lok w mum.. wasn't fantastic.. but we enjoy each others company.. plus there's a movie showing at the cc...kids get to watch while we eat.. we join them after eating..til 8.30pm then we send mum home..

Dear went buy me a cake.. mei was too tired n fall asleep b4 he was back...

Only boys sang me bday song n eat the cake...

I m contend n happy tdy.. nothing great happen tdy.. but I feel peaceful.. i hope kids behave n obey..study hard..everyone healthy... I love my family ;)

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I feel it... the stress n pressure ... i duno when.. but I know one day I will just give up.. let go n release myself from all this... Maybe very soon.. everything will b over.... stop forcing me... i m not happy at all...

Work n work ... change n change

Haven't got time to write..so long story n lots of changes..

From heading ap team then switch to head ar team... Sam was ask to leave n I was ask to take over the AR team.. it was not easy..especially since I have not much experience and with the mess he have leave behind ...

I tried very hard.. from the beginning to handle the dn n cn request.. the creation of customer code etc.. til first mon the end close.. with so much unknown tat I need to explore and find out the ans...

I was told gst will b pass on to Esther...

But suddenly..they tell me new change.. we will move to usg2 and report to Chee Yong.. n I will take back gst.. n head ar with 2 direct reportee..

When the qtr is due for gst reporting.. suddenly all push back to me.. lol.. n I need to tidy up another mess to ensure GST submit on time.. sian..

Then.. esther come tell me she tender.. so.. another nitemare coming up.. if only I can oso jus give up like tat...if only my boss dun treat me so well.. Maybe I will give up more easily...

I can only tell myself... i can... i sure can..

All the best to myself...

Shawn 8th bday

I totally forgot to update my boy 8th bday.

Shawn join chloe n I took a bus to her ballet class.. they have fun at the playground b4 and after the lesson

We didn't go special place to celebrate his bday  . Expect to the tampines mall to see his nexo knight exhibition..

Had our dinner at changi there.. had spaghetti n bake rice etc..

Collect his cake from bangawan solo..

Hope my boy grow up strong n healthy.. happy n enjoy his life... work hard n play well...

We love u so much dear Shawn...

Bye bye 2015.. welcome 2016

On the last day of 2015, tiring.. we bring the kids ard n celebrate our sec prince 6th bday. 2015 wasn't a smooth yr for us.. the biggest regret was to loss our pepper boy suddenly.. my greatest achievement was to c my Shawn adapting well in sch n do well... n I got promoted ;)

For 2016 I hope the 2 boys will do well in primary school.. no complaints from sch for Roy.. chloe will not hv separate anxiety soon.. dear's n my career will continue smooth n stable w no hiccup.. may our 2016 will huat ah!!!

2015 prize giving

Our Shawn got top 3 in the class. We were invited to his prize giving ceremony. He bring us proud.

Then we head to next for lunch buffet.

2 Oct 2015 pepper left us forever

He fall sick suddenly. Pass urine w lot of blood.  Mother only told us on the Monday 28sep. We brought him to vet tat nite.. did many test but result was unknown. Given antibiotic to take.

He start to lose appetite. . Every morn.. i ride scooter.. went over early w Roy. . Feed him medicine n try give him food...

On 2 Oct morn.. 6plus am.. Mother called me.. after many miss call to dear.. she say.. pepper 亡生了... shock by her words.. went tell dear.. n start crying so loud

The sight of pepper.. lying there..not moving.. a scene tat I will nvr forget.. i sad.. but I keep thking.. he left us. Cos he dun wana burden us.. which make me feel even worst..

Use a white towel.. cover n carry him .. send him to mount pleasant. . Left him in the room..table..farewell my boy.. i will miss you..

Will rmb those wonderful time we spend together at yi shun. . When u first come to our hse.. i neglect u after Shawn born.. u nvr once hurt our babies.. when Shawn hv nitemare. . Cry non stop.. how u lick his foot to calm him down ...  how u smell my babies when they first come back home from hospital..

4 Oct 2015 receive call from mount pleasant. . Pepper ash ready for collection le.. left kids w mil..  went collect w my mum... get some papers.. n incense to burn for him..

Went ponggol end.. to spread his ash into the sea... somewhere which seng n I loves to go.. hope pepper is set free le.. no more cage up ..

Sorry pepper.. if u wasn't happy w us.. we didn spend lot of time with u.. but we r so sad to hv u leaving us so suddenly... if u reali leave bcos of worry tat we can't afford to spend so much medical fee on u... we thanks you.. but I must tell you.. i nvr give up on u..

Thanks for everything.. may you will hv better life in your next life..